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I think a Satanist is born as a Satanist, but it takes everyone a while to discover that. I didn't read the Satanic Bible and convert, I read the Satanic Bible and saw something that stated everything I already believed, and I think that's the same with everyone here.

I've known that I'm a Satanist for over 3 years, but I'm 17, so most've you have probably known longer, and I'm curious.

I read the SB when I was a teenager, and like many recognized what seemed to me to be common sense. That was 25 years ago. I sort of forgot for a while, was 'lost' so to speak, but have rediscovered my roots in the past couple of years, and realized I had been a Satanist all along.

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I discovered the SB when I was 12...that was 29 years ago. I had always wondered if there was something wrong with me because I just could not see the world the same way everyone else did. I just could not buy into the dualistic thinking of the mainstream world and the Bible and pretty much every other religion I came across sounded like nothing more than fairytales to me.

After reading the SB, I knew what I was...it was not a conversion either, but a realization. Someone had put a name to it and within the pages of that book, I saw my own thoughts reflected back at me. Since then I have studied many other religions and philosophies but Satanism has always been who and what I am, and that will never change.

Exactly brother, Satanism is a name and a symbol to how we've always felt.

I have had a similar journey...
Before I knew that I was a satanist, I definitely knew that christianity was not for me, having been raised in a Roman Catholic environment.
I read the SB when I was 15 (got a copy from my uncle who was into the occult, but is not a satanist). It answered a lot of the questions I had about myself. I always felt disconnected from everyone around me, saw and perceived things differently. I had one or two close friends at any given time and held everyone else at arms length as aquaintances only, and I didn't like to be social just for the fact of being social.... etc, and all of the other things that set us apart from society.
I identified myself as a satanist then, but my family of course thought it was an adolescent phase.

As I began my career, I forgot about it, (religion in general) and focused on other things. I ended up suffering depression, and it took me a few years of self reflection to realize the problem was that I was not being true to myself, and so of course I didn't really like who I had become.

I've managed to turn my life around and into something I can be proud of, and as I glanced back at satanism, I realized that it wasn't just an adolescent phase. I am and have always been a satanist. Joining this forum was a symbol of my journey, progress, and my active decision to be true to myself for the rest of my life.

So to answer your question,.... if I count the years from when I first read the SB and identified myself as a satanist, then that was nearly 11 years ago.

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There appears to be a relatively common pattern: reading something in regard to Satanism in early adolescence, then letting the initial learning or recognition subside and be overtaken by other things in life, until at last, some time later, the realization reawakens and one understands that something needed to be revisited in properly understanding and exercising our true and proper nature, which is what our Satanism philosophically equips us to express and explore. For some this is a longer process than others; in my own case, I was reading in the occult from age 11, got a copy of the SB at 12, then a copy of The Satanic Rituals, and even started having dreams strongly influened by them, found it very much in tune with my feelings, read Nietzsche, and then moved off into philosophy, and life swept over... until about a month ago, when, in looking at myself, I began revisiting thoughts long left aside and interpreting my own thinking and behaviour, and realized that I had to similarly revisit some old reading, and that is when I acepted that I am a Satanist. Now I really feel myself back on the path.

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That is a very true statement Ankou. I read the SB in my mid-teen years, and declared I was a Satanist, then I concentrated on my life at that moment. Only later did I delve deeper into it. I have spoken with a lot of people who tend to do that.

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One sometimes really has to wonder about the order of operations and the training syllabus and scheduling! I do think that, had I been more clear on the path, then the focus and practical as well as philosophic application of so much I had studied and done would have served me better, but it wasn't entirely unpleasant or unprofitable off-roading.

Good luck\good hunting in your work, Aramil.

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Ebet labour ne zizoner un den.

For once we were gods, so shall we be again!

Interesting patterns. One that I might be finding myself in.

I am just not that into religion. Satanism to me is a expression of a utterly natural state of being. I have never had much of a problem with guilt holding me back in my actions. When I first started reading about Satanism I honestly thought to myself "this is already how I live. Why do I need this book"

I don't think that the book is worthless. Knowledge in all forms is something I desire. I read books about religion because I enjoy learning about what people in the world think is important. I am just not that into religion. Reading or talking to much about it in the end gets to feeling like a endless mental wank.

I like reading the discussions around here though. You are a very interesting and thought provoking group of people.

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I fit the pattern also...

I left christianity at fifteen, and went to satanism out of rebellion. Read the satanic bible, and used it for justification of my life. I went on to become a pretty decent drug dealer and career criminal till I got dropped for a robbery at twenty-two.
It was at that point that I really began to shed my criminal tendencies, and behaviors. I was finally clean/sober long enough to take a fairly objective look at my life, and I had nothing but time to work out some shit.
At thirty years old, I can finally say that I am 95% on the right track. I still have my quirks, but as time goes by, and I continue to justly exercise my will, it becomes easier to do just that...

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I've always felt i was a Satanist, probably because of my grandfather influence but i tried to battle against it for a very long time so i could feel accepted by the rest of the family, the community and later on my first wife. After my inability to adapt to organized religion and my pretty obvious lack of faith in a religious system and a x-tian god caused my first wife (who was very religious) to divorce me i came out of the closet (as a satanist, of course).

For the last years i have finally come to find myself and understand that my father's legacy, Satanism, is not only the best thing i have in life but its life itself. Satanism is not my religion, its not rebellion because i certainly don't give a flying fuck about what the rest of the people think. Satanism is who i am, its me.

I think i wasted like 40 seconds of your life by making you read this but i feel no remorse about it.

All this crap just to answer... 25 years as a closet satanist, 5 years in the open enjoying life to the best of my ability.

Until the day i die.
Hail Satan!

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I am proud to be born Satanist and raised Satanist by a Satanist [grand]father.

Alex, I can think of and have done far worse things that wasted 40 seconds of my time than read your post! It is good to be mindful of how vital the experience is, and to see how others come to their realization, since this is the tonic to remind us that solipsistic somnolence(that old saw about what happens when one assumes) can weaken one, can diminish one, and just damned well make life lesser as an experience. Moreover, learning from experiences such as yours can only make us better when called upon by others for counsel, and for this we are grateful and enjoy the experiencegaiined.

And this took a damned sight more than 40 seconds to write (my poor typing and a finicky keyboard).

Rege Satanas!

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Ebet labour ne zizoner un den.

For once we were gods, so shall we be again!

Personally, I have always lived my life with logic and rationality, and have called myself nothing. I stand by science and the rational mind, by intellect and pure human reasoning, not by any fear of the divine. And yet it is society which has labelled me, not me myself. You say that I am a satanist, and you dictate the tenets and parameters of such a designation, and I merely find myself within the confines. If that is what I am, then I might as well enjoy it.

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Ich bin der Geist stets verneint
-Faust

And yet another good example of the "born, not made" argument. When you discover Satanism, you should be discovering, for the most part, a description of who and what you already are, and that at last you have a label for it.... should you choose to label yourself.

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I started to get interested in Satanism when I went to advanced Christian Bibleschool...

to much defense of god, to much no responsibilities of actions taken by god, ...

then u start to wonder about the underdog (Satan in this case) and u start to gather information (websites, books etc) and here I hope I can satisfy my thirst for knowledge.

And yes u probably are born a Satanist its just latent, not awake, we all have to see the truth with are own eyes..

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Luciferi Excelsi.
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